Hopes.............

I have seen people who live life to the way they want life to be ....they struggle,endure,shape up to say "hey this is how i wanted my life to be u know...." and they succeed in doing so....
while i on the other hand accepted the way life is presented to me .
although i dint to such enduring struggle it doesnt mean that i dont want to have my own life or so. Fact is that i eventually end up accepting the way it is .......
Im great at planning ...i can plan out my entire career , days sechdule,e1 life .....bt its nt always smooth sailing for me every time...i end up thinking where did i go wrong....
i knw im lazy ....very lazy to be precise bt dats wat makes me who i am...im nt proud or nor im bragging abt it bt thats wat makes me bit different than others.....bcoz of this laziness im tend to do things differently than others....i explore different possiblities,methods to reach the goal that others have reached way before....so in this way i make my own way and able to think differently than others....although this doesnt mean im genius or something bt just that i cope up situations even with my drawbacks.....and mostly the contemporary method that others follow gives perfect and fast results ....mine is based on trial and error :)
So to get my work done i kick my butt in the end and finally get my work done ....(people say finally he has did it !!) :D although this work/process could hav been done much faster by others....

bt i still keep on belive that i too may reach that heights ....thats wat i always believed ...
its been almost 5 years since i hoped i would make every proud by coming on the top....bt always fell face down ....everytime....
I just hope that this hope dosent end up being a hope only ....
AruN